The Components of Pain

Pain...we all know what it is....yes, we sure know it when we feel it.

Some pain is easy to deal with..aspirin, motrin, tylenol, vicodin, percocet, morphine...but that is for physical pain, and it has only one component, really - an injury, a disease or the like...

But then there is that other kind of pain...the kind that eats at you from inside and claws to get out.  But you, the one in pain, struggles to hold it in.  Isn't that interesting?  And these are made up of too many components to count, but here are a few....

the things that hurt you that you could never rise above...the little human foibles that you have displayed since your youth that you have had the misfortune of having someone else witness - those who have suffered the same weaknesses or mishaps and were ashamed but escaped the view of another - and that witness, wanting the world to think it could never have happened to them, screams to the world of your misfortune.  And all those other, similarly situated to the witness, scream in glee to hide their own secret shame;

The fears, the deep down fears that you were never good enough, and never would be.....;

The shame of wanting things and doing things and thinking things that everyone has told you are WRONG, and EVIL and SINFUL - FUCK YOU Religion and the Religious if you look outside yourself and peer into anyone else and seek to judge.  Religion is to save YOU, no one else, so shut the fuck up and let people be.....

And the most painful component of all is knowing that you will never be able to overcome any of it, really.  You hide it, you smile over it, you laugh it off as youth, or immaturity, or that it never even crossed your mind...

And shame on us for that..  So for some there is vice, sex, alcohol. drugs, religion, obsession to mask the pain,,, and others just carry it to the darkness....

Shame on us...yes, that adds just another component to the pain that is all human...perhaps being human isn't all it's cracked up to be